Problem [Ariana Grande]

"Look closer, and you'll see something extraordinary, mystifying... something real and true... We have never been what we've seemed."

-Z: A Novel of Zelda Fitzgerald

Okay lovelies, in between a 24 hour Taylor Swift reputation binge, I did some time traveling (reading in old journals what I did on this day in history) and came across a story I couldn't resist sharing.

"I am always worried about being judged by others. After I shared this fear with my therapist, he literally LOL'd (laughed out loud). He explained that most people, especially him, weren't judging me, and I was being too hard and judgmental on myself. He feels it's unfounded shame based and stems from a deep seeded belief that I'm "not enough". He went on to say that my problems weren't too big and that people that matter won't care or hold anything against me and that those were the people worth holding onto. He said as for anyone else that does judge or criticize me; they aren't worth my time or energy or me. He started to go on about a song about that. I was sitting there thinking 'Oh great, he's going to play some old-timey, impossibly optimistic song from way back when [mind you he was probably only in his late 40s early 50s]. I forced a smile. Then he had me LOL-ing when he finally remembered how the song went and actually started singing it, belting 'I've got one less problem without cha.' by Ariana Grande and Izzy Azalea! Haha! I was not expecting that. That was probably my best session with him.

I smile a little [lot] more lately. I am filled with hope and a light that won't be dulled or extinguished. I'm a force unlike any other. I'm starting to love myself as I rebuild myself into the best Charley. I can be the amazing girl wonder. I'm creating my own happiness and no one can take it from me. I am strong, beautiful, kind, fun, and intelligent. I'm worth it. [and SO ARE YOU!]"

-Me, 11/11/2017 (one year ago)

Therapists say the darndest things!

Well lovelies, sleep is calling my name... so is obsessing over Taylor Swift's reputation and the two magazines volume I and II. I have no words for her genius, talent, and impossible-ness. Slaylor. 

She is the American Queen to my USA Princess.

T-Swift and C-Swift.

Seriously, drop everything now and go buy her new CD and magazines at Target. They are earth shattering, mind blowing, and breathtaking... I promise I'm not biased just because I'm like the biggest Swiftie in existence..

You know a reputation blog post will be coming soon...

<W/L3

C-Swift

"You have to leave before you get left."

-T Swizzle

A Taste of Your Own Medicine

 "No mater what happens in life, be good to people. Being good to people is a wonderful legacy to leave behind."

-Taylor Alison Swift

A Taste of Your Own Medicine

Don't give them a taste of their own medicine. They already know what it feels like. Give them a taste of YOUR own medicine. If they lied, let your medicine be maturity. If they lied, let your medicine be honesty. If they played with your emotions, let your medicine be maturity. If they broke you, let your medicine heal. If they made you cry, let your medicine make them smile. These remedies of yours may take years to work, but they work. And they last. So be patient. Stay true to yourself. And remember this: it is better for people to value you for who you are, not for who you pretend to be. Who you are lasts a lifetime. A forever. Who you pretend to be changes like the seasons. Don't be afraid to be yourself, even if it means removing yourself from lives that you want to be in. You are, no doubt, worthy of being valued for who you are. So be who you are. The beautiful. The kind. The lover.  

I hope that someday when I am gone, someone, somewhere, picks my soul up off these words, and my book, my journals, the pages and thinks 'I would have loved her.

"Kindness is one of the most underrated trials in the world. We focus so much on material things and attention, but forget that it is kindness that brings us a fulfillment that warms our soul."

"When you hear people make hateful comments, stand up to them. Point out what a waste it is to hate and you could open their eyes."

-Taylor Swift

"My wish for you is that you continue. Continue to be who you are, to astonish a mean world with your kindness."

-Maya Angelou

"... Atticus, he was real nice..."

"Most people are, Scout, when you finally see them."

-To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee

"Whenever you feel like criticizing anyone... just remember that all the people in this world haven't had the advantages that you've had."

-F. Scott Fitzgerald

"Happiness is the new rich.

Inner peace is the new success.

Health is the new wealth.

Kindness is the new cool."

"Choose calm over chaos.

Serenity over stress.

Peace over perfection.

Grace over grit.

Faith over fear."

"The key to happiness?

Focus on your own journey & spread kindness, love, & hope."

"Happiness is not easy to find running straight for it. It is usually too elusive, too ephemeral, too subtle. If you haven't learned it already, you will learn it in the years ahead that most times happiness comes to us when we are least expecting it, when we are busy doing something else. Happiness is almost always a by product of some other endeavor."

-Elder Jeffrey R. Holland

"Do not judge my story by the chapter you walked in on."

"There's no lemon so sour that you can't make something resembling lemonade."

-This Is Us

Smile at strangers, lovelies.

We are all in this together.

<W/L3 C